15 Sep 2020, Hanoi, Vietnam
They could not save me till I had saved myself.
I saw him on his birthday, just now, after 4 years, 4 years of keeping my promise, stabbing into my own heart. That day, when he asked why, I could neither answer nor explain. 'Coz I didn't know myself either. I just knew that when I would see him again, it would be totally different. I had thought and imagined so much, but I could never expect it to be that way.
You know? He said exactly the same things that I had told you all in Paris, in the same manner. But it was the same to a me in the past. My view changed. It has, since the day I lost that navy blue ring, in Berlin.
Paris, the pentagon studio, the solo trip around Europe, the super Moon in the Northwestern sky, snow, that powerful woman, and you.
Let me see where and to whom this path would lead me.
And let me see, through, what kind of person you are that deserve such colourless gem. "Haven't you realised that yet?" It chose you. And even I have no power over its autonomy.
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Valentine's Day, my birthday, and his birthday, they're - all - enough. I've no - regret - left : )
I am ready now.
So much things to do, and to prepare, even myself. So just wait - until - I - let - you - go!
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